Dear Diary, BIG Changes...



Hey! It's been a while.  I've missed a few blogs, but all with good reason.  We have been very busy with BIG things!  Big events, and big changes afoot! 

The most exciting of which happened this past weekend.  We had a family reunion for my Grandma's 90th birthday celebration!  I never realized how much effort goes into planning a 2-day trip for a little family of three.  I can't imagine how my Grandma used to plan family outings with 7 kids in tow!  It was wonderful to see family again.  Some of whom I haven't seen for 9 years or more, and some I've never met in person!  

As a special treat, we were able to go to church.  For me, it felt like I was returning home after a long journey.  The readings.  The songs.  Standing next to my Grandma as she sang so beautifully.  I hadn't been to church in so long.  My fiance and our daughter had never been to a Lutheran service before.  I have talked to her about God, and our faith.  We read her children's bible together, and sing songs I remember from childhood.  As the granddaughter of a Lutheran pastor, and Sunday School teacher, I knew quite a few.  And we pray, every night.  But there's nothing like standing in church and feeling the community around you.  Hearing the voices rise in praise.  It's a spirit that can't be explained.  A spirit that has to be experienced.  I was looking forward to it from the moment the date was set.  And, as if it wasn't enough to be thankful for, my grandma also made arrangements for our daughter to be baptized that Sunday!  

I had been wanting to have my daughter baptized since she was born.  It really meant a lot to me.  But, I had to ask my daughter if it was something she wanted.  If it was as important to her as it was to me.  She answered with an enthusiastic, "YES!" And my heart beat a little faster every day until we were finally beside the baptismal font.  At that moment, I felt a calm wash over me, as I watched my little girl stand before the congregation and accept Jesus Christ into her life forever.  I heard the words of the pastor, the family, and the rest of the congregation welcoming her.  Promising to pray for her. Her sponsors alongside my fiance and myself, renouncing the devil and forces that defy God.  To help her turn from sin, and walk the path of light.  And to teach her about the forgiveness of our sins as well. It all sounds so HUGE.  And yet, when lifted up with so many voices, I felt the community of faith more than I ever have before.  My own faith was rejuvenated.  

I understand that there are those who don't believe in faith, or God, or religion.  And honestly, to each their own.  This blog isn't meant to offend anyone or judge beliefs.  I'm not looking to convert anyone, or push my faith onto anyone who disagrees.  So I hope it's not taken that way.  This blog is an account of a pivotal moment in my own life.  Watching my daughter's baptism was profound for me.  Hearing the miracles of my Grandma's 90 years, for me, was an affirmation.  I truly believe that God has a plan for us.  I struggle with my autoimmune disorders, and my mental health at times.  But knowing that God has a reason for my struggles, helps me to continue through them.  Knowing that there is a plan for me, helps me to continue taking steps in the right direction on my journey.  And with the big changes that are still to come, knowing my faith is a blessing. 

Due to the upcoming changes, it may be a while still before I can upload a Weigh In blog.  Though I did weigh in at the doctor's office 2 weeks ago, and their scale said 275.6 lbs.  I know there's a margin of difference between scales, so I'm not counting it as official until I can weigh in on my own scale again.  Which should be in about another 2 weeks?  Where is my scale, you ask?  Well, for now, I'm going to keep that to myself.  The answer will be in one of my upcoming blogs.  So... STAY TUNED!

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