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Weigh in: 281.3 ➡ -1.1 Slow going. I always knew doctors recommend healthy weight loss as 1 to 2 pounds a week. I just didn't realize how it actually feels. It feels like you aren't really making any headway. It's progress, sure. But I also feel like it could be undone so much faster. Ok, yes, I know it took me a long time to put this weight on. And I'm not expecting to lose it overnight. I've heard it all before. I know the reality. Especially having seen how the scale moves over the years. It's insane. Since learning of my thyroid condition, I've paid close attention. And it never makes any sense. In times of stress, while being careful with my diet, I can still gain 10 pounds in less than 2 weeks. It happens so fast. Then, losing that same weight even without stress takes a long time. I'm doing my best to focus on the positive. Take any little progress as a victory. Eventually, once I learn how to better manage my fibromyalgia, I hope I can pus

Weigh in: 282.4 > - 1 lb Ok. So one pound down.  I'll take it.  It's better than a gain! If I'm being completely honest, I'm still having a hard time not feeling discouraged.  I've been working really hard, and I thought at my size the weight would come off faster.  I guess, in some ways it proves to me that I wasn't eating so terribly before.  I used to second guess my diagnosis.  Thinking that my size had more to do with my diet than my hormones.  Evidently, that's not the case. And, a part of me already knew that.  See, for years I dieted.  I tried quite a few.  For example: *Atkins - worked for about a month, then stalled and never worked for me again. I only lost maybe 5-10 pounds.  Then nothing. Plus the first two weeks were murder without milk!   *Diet Pills and appetite suppressants - Not a good idea.  I don't have much of an appetite to begin with.  I honestly don't know what hunger feels like, because I don't feel it.  I jus

Weigh in: 283.4 ➡ - 1.4 Back to square one. Last week there was a small gain. This week the same amount was lost. It's a little hard not to be discouraged when I'm working as hard as I am, but I'm not seeing the results I'd like to see. Still any small loss is better than a significant gain. On the positive notes for the week, at least I lost something. Even if only a pound, I'll take it! I'm proud of myself for sticking to a better schedule this week than I did last week. Last week I think I was too restrictive with my carbohydrates and my calories. It needs to be more about balance. Carbohydrates are not evil. Calories are not the devil incarnate. You need sustenance to live, and you need balance to be healthy. There are such things as good carbohydrates and healthy fats. I needed to let go a little bit. This week I managed to do that. I did a little more math, and balanced my proteins and carbohydrates accordingly. But I didn't let go so much that I

This is the reality of hypothyroidism. This is what living with Hashimoto's looks like. It's blood tests every 5 weeks. It's swollen fingers for no apparent reason. Sometimes my fingers swell and sometimes they shrink. I can never really predict which way my fingers will decide to go in the morning. The swelling / shrinking can be as extreme as an entire ring size. Some days I'm a size 7, some days I'm a size 9. Most days I'm a size 8. Up one entire ring size from high school when my thyroid problems began. I'm blessed to have a fiance who bought me several different engagement rings and wedding sets, each in a different size. So I'll always have one I can wear. Lucky for him, diamonds are not this girl's best friend. Never liked them. Just my own personal preference. The blood draws are difficult. Each new phlebotomist has a challenge with me. Very few have gotten it right on the first try. The safest bet is my hand. Usually my dominant hand

Weigh in: 284.8 ➡ + 1.4 lbs This week has been hectic. And while the scale is showing a gain, I still met one of my goals for the week. I set a small goal to workout at least 3 times this week. And I did! However, one of the problems I seem to be having is with scheduling. I haven't quite gotten the hang of the new schedule. Before starting this journey, I really only ate once a day. And I very rarely drank water. Now I'm trying to eat a more sensible 3 meal a day plan. I'm also drinking mostly water throughout the day. My body is a little confused. But I'm not going to let that stop me. I've been assured by doctors, nutritionists, and Fitness gurus that my body will adjust. This isn't really a diet for me. It's a whole lifestyle change. And it's going to take small steps in the right direction, to get me where I want to go. I've cut out soda completely. I've researched my medications and the foods that interact with them. I've pulled