Weight Loss Week One
Weight loss Journeys. Let's face it, they're the pits. At least they are to start. The only fun that you have on a weight loss journey is when you start to see some results. Progress. The very beginning is discouraging. Especially when you step on the scale and realize exactly how much you have to lose. The scale can be your worst enemy. It certainly is at the very beginning. And honestly I'm not even sure that I want to put this out there. That number on the scale. It's embarrassing. Because that number can be taken completely the wrong way by anyone who doesn't know your struggle. No matter what, the number on the scale will speak more to them then anything you try to actually say. That's not to say I'm embarrassed with myself. Or that I don't love myself as I am. The embarrassment that I feel isn't a reflection of my own opinion, rather it's derived from the influence that the number has on the opinion of others. The whole idea of numbers equating someone's worth bothers me. Numbers to measure someone's health or happiness. I never really liked numbers anyway considering math was my worst subject. So the idea that a number could hold such bearing over my life is a little ridiculous. And we have so many different numbers to keep track of on these weight loss journeys. The scale. How it correlates to the BMI index when factoring in your height, age, gender, etc. How many calories you've eaten vs how many you're allowed. How many carbohydrates. Blood pressure. Sugars. It's all a numbers game.
For me, although this is partly a weight loss journey, I feel it's more a journey toward real health and lasting happiness. For years I've struggled with my weight. Quick shout out to Hashimoto's Thyroiditis and Fibromyalgia! Thanks for that! It took years to be diagnosed. But we finally have a handle on it! I wish I could say it was just in time. Frankly, it feels far too late. But, better late than never! I've gotten my health going back in the right direction in the last two years. Lots of doctors appointments and blood work! Just when I started to think phlebotomy is really just a fancy word for vampirism, we got some results! And now, within the last month, my weight has finally started to head back in the right direction as well. Slowly. No really. It's been sooo slow. Funny how all it takes is a little stress to put on ten pounds, but sooooooooo much work to shed it. So here we are. I'm not at my highest weight. But I'm certainly up there. And as embarrassed as I am to admit it, I need to hold myself accountable. What's a weight loss journey blog, without the actual numbers??? So here it goes, judge as ye wish.
Sunday March 31, 2019:
Weight: 283.4 lbs.
Measurements: 53", 50", 62".
The goal? For now, to lose at least 50 lbs. by my birthday, July 30.
I'm taking this journey in short bursts. Small goals leading up to the bigger picture. HEALTH! I'm sure my goals will become more frequent as time goes on. I'll discover and achieve non-scale victories. And I'm sure there will be some disappointments. But I am 1000% committed to seeing it through! Not just for me, but for my little family. I need to show them what Mommy is made of!! :)
For me, although this is partly a weight loss journey, I feel it's more a journey toward real health and lasting happiness. For years I've struggled with my weight. Quick shout out to Hashimoto's Thyroiditis and Fibromyalgia! Thanks for that! It took years to be diagnosed. But we finally have a handle on it! I wish I could say it was just in time. Frankly, it feels far too late. But, better late than never! I've gotten my health going back in the right direction in the last two years. Lots of doctors appointments and blood work! Just when I started to think phlebotomy is really just a fancy word for vampirism, we got some results! And now, within the last month, my weight has finally started to head back in the right direction as well. Slowly. No really. It's been sooo slow. Funny how all it takes is a little stress to put on ten pounds, but sooooooooo much work to shed it. So here we are. I'm not at my highest weight. But I'm certainly up there. And as embarrassed as I am to admit it, I need to hold myself accountable. What's a weight loss journey blog, without the actual numbers??? So here it goes, judge as ye wish.
Sunday March 31, 2019:
Weight: 283.4 lbs.
Measurements: 53", 50", 62".
The goal? For now, to lose at least 50 lbs. by my birthday, July 30.
I'm taking this journey in short bursts. Small goals leading up to the bigger picture. HEALTH! I'm sure my goals will become more frequent as time goes on. I'll discover and achieve non-scale victories. And I'm sure there will be some disappointments. But I am 1000% committed to seeing it through! Not just for me, but for my little family. I need to show them what Mommy is made of!! :)
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